What?? Still in Texas??

Okay. So I’m still in Texas. That’s the situation. Do I want to be in Texas? No. My heart and I want to be in Budapest, teaching, serving, and working as a missionary full time. God had brought me this far, and I was waiting on His provision to get me all the way there. But it didn’t happen with the timing that I thought was right. The money didn’t come. 

In my personal walk with God I began to get very frustrated. I kept crying out to God saying, ‘God, I’m ready to go! I want to go! Why isn’t the money coming in? Why aren’t things going the way I want them to go?” I kept crying out to Him, sometimes just crying, and asking why. The response was and continues to be, “not yet”. While I was fundraising I was tuning out of what that voice was saying, and I was hoping that it would all work out. But there was one night where God caught me in the silence and I couldn’t tune out that voice any longer. I tried. But it was too loud for me to ignore any longer. “Not yet”. And when I asked and cried and said “God I’m trying to serve you, what do you mean not yet? What do you mean not now?” He said, “I am.” There it was. “I am. The maker of the heavens, the bright and morning star, the One who calmed the seas, the One who always was and is to come. I am. Beginning and the end, I am.” 

And I had my answer. He has the perfect timing. He has the perfect opportunity. He knows my life and my story and what is supposed to happen. I don’t have to worry that I’ve failed or I’ve not done what He asked. He asked me to go and I said yes. He isn't saying no. He's saying not yet. I just have to wait a little while longer.

While at Teach Beyond this summer, I learned about an amazing opportunity. Teach Beyond has a program that goes into national schools and teaches English. If I wait for next fall, I could go and teach in Budapest in a national school. I would be paid, I would have very little support to raise. That is what gets me excited every day. I know that God has called me to Budapest, and I know that I am passionate about working in a national school. I would have loved working for a private Christian School there this fall, but I will be completely obedient to God and what His call is. He is saying, “not yet” and so I will boldly speak with others about what He wants me to do and I will boldly walk forward next year and follow Him and His instructions. I will use this time to lean on His promises and prepare myself for next year.